Sunday, July 11, 2010

Trying to Count Sheep

It has probably been the roughest couple of weeks so far. Getting enough sleep has been my biggest challenge. I've had a tough time falling asleep, mostly because of pain, and then trying to stay asleep. I hope I can find something soon that will help me get through the pain so I can get the rest that I desperately need.

I had a pretty big setback this week. My chest pain returned with a vengeance, and I had to go to the ER to make sure nothing serious was happening. Thankfully everything checked out okay, but I'm still frustrated that the chest pain has come back. All I can do is keep on moving forward and not letting the bumps along the way get me down.

Tomorrow I fly out to D.C. for my third visit with Dr. Jemsek, and to start my second round of antibiotics. I am really hoping he can help me find something that can help me sleep, and manage the pain better. I’ll do a more detailed update when I get back.

Friday, July 2, 2010

Birthday and Anniversary

I would first like to say thanks for all the sweet birthday wishes. It was a very quiet day for me. Had to do IV treatments, but my family and I went to the Golden Corral for dinner. It was nice to get out for a little while.

Yesterday, July 1st, was David's and my anniversary. It has been a year since we first started talking. A lot of you have wondered how we met, and so I thought I would share our story. David Robertson and I met on LDSsingles.com. I was never a big fan of online dating, but after some persuasion from my parents (a huge surprise...lol), I decided to give it a try. About a week after I signed up I received a message from David. It really stood out to me from other messages because it felt a lot more sincere, and he talked about things that were a lot more important to me than physical looks and flattery. I honestly didn't think that anything would come out of it besides finding a wonderful friend, but before I knew it this southern boy had stolen my heart (and it takes a lot more than a thick southern accent to sweep me off my feet). We can't really pinpoint at what point the friendship turned into something more. It just happened, so we decided to set the first day he contact me as our anniversary.

He proposed to me in December, and we were hoping to be married this summer. If it had worked out how we had hoped we would have probably been married this week, but the Lord has other plans for us for right now. We are trying to be patient and doing our best to follow God's will, but we look forward to being able to start our life together. It has been a wonderful year, but there have been some tough times too. We have completely opposite personalities which can bring a wonderful balance to a relationship, but can also cause some clashes. I can honestly say that our trials have helped us grow closer and stronger. I know that we still have a lot of bumps ahead, but I'm comforted to know that I have someone who is willing to stand by my side.

Now why would I post this on a page dedicated to my fight with Lyme? Because he has become my rock in this battle, and I rely on him more than he will ever know.  It has been really hard to not have him here while I go through treatments, and I know that he hates feeling so helpless, but he has been there for me in so many other ways.  He is my knight. His armour may be a little bent and worn, but that only means he has been through his own battles and isn't afraid to fight. He is a wonderful example to me, and has taught me a lot about myself. I am so grateful for the wonderful people that the Lord has placed in my life, like David, to help me during this trying time because I know that I could not do this alone.

Love you honey!